From what i heard some silly, dumb girl tried to commit suicide by jumping off the 3rd story of New Town Secondary. I mean wtf? Who the hell in the right mind would jump of the 3rd level of a build expecting to die an instant death. That very girl just proved to us how stupid 1 can be. Just because she failed and retain ( Seriously how stupid can one be. ), she tried to end her problems and shame by committing suicide. How can one not cherish life that god have given to you? Do you know how much time and hard work your parents took to make you in that very bed you sleep when you were a child? ( Sounds Gross. ) We must all chrish our life in every way possible. Think about the baby's that were aborted due to some careless man who shot without using protection, you think they wanted to die by the hands of a doctor? I'm very sure they wanted to live to see the world. Really, really stupid act. I'm not surprised as these people are very stupid.

Now 2nd news i heard is that my former Form Teacher Mr Goh Soon Hua has been fired due to his reckless act of aggression yet again. This time he was caught and prosecuted before he could harm another person. I'm sure everyone had been his victim at least once when he tried to indirectly blackmail you in order to listen to him. Well this is what happen, G.S.H. canned someone with no reason and that got him fired. Well lets think what could have caused this little hulk to emerge.

1. His wife did not give him the pleasure he yearned for.
2. His mom died.
3. His dad died.
4. He owed the loan sharks money.
5. He found his wife engaging in sexual activites with his best friend.

Just started work and i tell you it's hell, so much that makes me want to quit and go back home and play DOTA. Now i realise the importance of a good education. I ask myself, would i want to earn shit and have to work really hard? NO. who does? Maybe some Bangladeshis but not me. I work 10 hours a day inclusive of my 1 hour break, 6 days a week so that's like 60 hours a week. Sucks eh? Well it sure does when i have to walk all the way from the last tower at Suntec City all the way across through Citylink Mall to reach City Hall Mrt, that's not all, another 30 minutes journey home and from there i have to take a 10 minutes walk to reach my home.

Legs aching but mind working. ( Lame shit ) What the heck, okay s$3300 i'll receive till the end of the year ain't that bad. I'll be able to buy all kind of crap i want. PS3? New Bike? More Expensive stuff others can't afford?

Maybe I'll be working 2 jobs also. One is the main one which gets me a basic salary while the other is some multi-level marketing thingy. For the multi-level marketing thingy, it seems like a very profitable organisation, they have workers at the age of 24 driving bmw, that's like WOW. If you want to know more then you have to join yourself, i ain't sharing anything here.

I'm ranting all i want here, leg still aching, waiting for my hair to dry before i sleep. Lets see what else i should talk about. Oh yeah, what if i fail my N'Levels, where would i go? I would never see myself go to ITE, never. I'd rather spend my salary on a private course. Screw N'Levels and all the other O or A. Screw them all. I just need a get rich quick scheme to end my misery.

Take that Bush.

N'Levels draw to a close. 1 more month before the Language papers start while another 2 more before the other subjects. It does seem really near all of a sudden. The days pass so fast. It felt like it was still the start of the year for me, slacking all day, not doing a thing related to studies.

I'm just coming to think about this really hard, i should be mugging, studying everyday instead of playing. My parents always tell me this," What are you going to do if your fail your N'Levels?". The moment they say this, i could not find a phrase or even a word to reply them. Perhaps i have to go to a private school like my sister or even worst ITE, but no i will not disappoint a second time and there will be no more mistakes made. I know i can never make it to Junior Collage so i turn my attention to the Polytechnic's.

What do i want to do in life? There are many options and i can't even seem to think of something which i suppose is interesting to wake up every morning to. Even if i do pass my N'Levels, will i be able to cope with the O'Level standard the following year? Like what my English teacher Miss Rev said," If you do pass your O'Levels with 10 points, i will guarantee that it will be a very tough year ahead of you, but for those of you who pass with 9 marks and below should be able to pass their O'Levels". The way she said it is really demoralizing for everyone in my class.

This was a conversation between Me and Benjamin Tan.

Me: Hey, Dota tonight?

Ben: See first.

Me: Why not?

Ben: I think you should stop playing for just this 2 months, last time i used to play every night and end up sleeping in class the following morning. Just stop playing for these 2 months only, study only.

Me: ( Silent )

I just sat there speechless, i could not imagine Benjamin Tan, the Snake King would say something so wise. Normally he would say stupid things so this was a first for him.

Play time is over.

5am, the alarm rang. Walked towards the toilet to have a cold shower. Changed and got ready by 7. Went to pick up Enshao from his house and went straight to Bukit Timah. Both of us felt nervous as we don't know who we are up against. Reached the starting point, we met the rest of the gang, William, Joshua, Ellery, Calvin, etc just to name a few. It was really crowded as by the time i reached, many competitors are arriving in the dozens. It is the 2nd cross-country race of the year.



I was in the Boys Division B'. Up against both my friends William and Joshua. It was a tensed moment. I knew if i were to rush immediately, i will not have enough stamina to keep my pace. My best timing of 2 rounds around the Bukit Timah Nature Reserve was around 55Min's. Its going to be hell for me, pedalling non-stop for almost 1hour. This is the route that i will be cyclist through for 2 rounds.



Crazy shit i tell you. I started around 0845. the horn sounded and off we go. At first i rushed forward towards the centre of the group, it was during the climb which i overtook a few people and was in a steady position after. After i reached 3rd place, there was this climb which cause me to lose my position. As i was climbing, i quickly shifted to my easiest gear, as i continue to pedal, there was a loud cranking sounds coming from my RD. I did not really care as i just want to stay in 3rd position. Without any notice, my chain just skipped causing me to stop and allow the riders behind me to overtake. I was cursing every moment because the riders behind me could not climb as therefore was running up. I said to myself," Just forget it and overtake him later". True enough i overtook the guy and regain 3rd position.

Just as another steep uphill climb was in front, i quickly shifted my gear and again it skipped causing me to allow 2 other guys to overtake me. I cursed and cursed. Its like why? Wtf man. I was 5Th position throughout the race. In the end i just got 5Th place. That won me a trophy and some $120. I suspected that the guy giving free servicing at the start point screwed my tuning, but only to find out that my RD Hanger is dented. gay shit man.


Ain't it nice?


I swear i could have won the guy beside me in white.








The line up.


The Bikes.





Well have to thank Williams dad for taking the time off to come down and take pictures.

Anyways, after my race, about 1-2hours later, it was the start of the Men's Open. Majority of the people who registered for the Men's Open was the Singapore National riders like Samuel Yang and Junaidi. Even Calvin joined the Men's Open category. For the Men's open, it was 5 rounds instead of 2 rounds, now that is sick. Their average timing for 1 round is around 15-20Min's, that's very fast. In first place for the Men's Open was Junaidi, followed by Samuel. Calvin got 4Th place, congrats to him. I think he is the youngest in the Men's Open at just the age of 17.


The national riders.

Well, just after every race is over, its time for the lucky draw. okay to cut it short, my friend won the top prize which is worth 1.1k. I just feel like killing him for no apparent reason.

Okay time to sleep. School reopens tomorrow. Back aches like hell. Good night.

Yesterday was both a sad and fun day for me. That fateful day my aunt had passed away, just barely a few days after i visited her in hospital. Its was very sudden and shocking. I remembered it was just midnight when my mom came to my room to inform me about the news. It was quite shocking because the last time i visited her, she was on a road to recovery. Yesterday was the day we went to cremate her body.

Cut it short, the crematory centre at Mandai was really modern. I was expecting a run down place which was not renovated in a few years. I did not know we would be allowed to view the coffin being placed inside the oven or what ever it's called. As the coffin is placed on a mechanical carrier which automatically moved to the oven. As it was slowly reaching its destination, i could hear cries coming from my cousin's and other few relatives, i knew deeply inside i was very sad for this tragic happening and almost felt tears coming out. What has happened has happened, nothing we can do about it but to move on.

After that went home to change and live up to my promise because when i made a bet with Faris that if he won me in this Custom game in Warcraft, i would cut off my fringe. At first i won him 3 games straight, i taunted him even further and i lost the 4th game. Somehow he was quite lucky to win. No choice so i just went to cut.

Went to sukardi's birthday with Faris, Danial and his brother, cabbed there and yeah, first thing we did there was to gamble again. Made only $5, thats very pathetic, at least it can buy me a Mc'Donald's meal or burger. Had to feel sorry for desmond, he lost alot since he was the banker.
Cut to the chase, the best part of the birthday party was when Susu kissed yelin. That was the moment, after 19 years of waiting. Should have recorded it down.

After that went to irc. Wanted to play Dota but was waiting for more people so i left first. Was feeling tired. Thats all.

Bye.