You know when we enjoy or have fun, we tend to forget our problems. We start to forget about pain, sufferings, war, disaster's and death. We will always think it will be just right for us, but do you know that anything can just happen in a blink of an eye? Would i be able to cope?

Sometimes we enjoy ourselfs by going out, buying clothes or whatever stuff we feel like buying, playing soccer, dota, pool, etc etc etc.

Few days back i received news that my aunt was hospitalized in Tan Tock Seng Hospital and is in coma due to a bad fall. (How she fell or what happen is still unknown) I just stood standing, shocked and in a world of my own thinking how could this happen.

Just today, again i received news that my aunt has woken up. My mom decided to visit her, so i tagged along. We had to go all the way to the ICU ward to find my aunt. I tell you, the minute i stepped through the entrance to the ICU wards, i felt very nervous. I don't know what to say to my aunt. Worst of all, when i walked past the first ward and saw the patient inside, i knew that person was in pain with all the needles inserted into the body. At that moment i felt very uneasy, i just kept thinking if that were to happen to me, what would i ever do. I could not bear to look at the rest of the wards as i knew i would have this weird feeling inside me, something i can't explain.

Upon reaching my aunts ward, she already had visitors. I guess all of them were from her husbands side as i did not know anyone at all. I walked in with my mom and i saw my aunt for the first time in ages. I could not bare to look at here for too long as i too could feel her pain and suffering. She could not speak due to something inserted into her mouth and it really made me sad looking at my aunt.

I started to question myself, asking is there really such thing as god? If there was a god, why would he make us suffer. I thought god loved his creations. All kinds of thoughts passed through my mind. Suddenly my aunt pointed to me and my mom to come into the room and talk to her. It was a long talk, my mom was trying to comfort her. I could just feel my aunt's agony. Since she could not speak, she had to write down her thoughts and feelings or whatever she wants to say to us. After a certain time spent inside, we decided to leave as we wanted my aunt to rest.

My mom kept telling me, anything can happen in a blink of an eye. Sometimes life is just cruel, but what choice do i have? If only no such thing as death in this world. No such thing as pain or suffering.

Good night, I'm off to bed.